One of the biggest lessons I have learned over the past five years is the power of Faith. A trust in something bigger than myself, an unwavering belief that I am exactly where I am supposed to be and a power in knowing that things will unfold just as they are meant to, even if it is hard to see. Trusting in this has been my greatest tool in getting through anything that comes my way.
“Spirit Weavers Gathering is a five-day celebration of cultures past, a remembering and practicing of basic human skills to ensure the survival of the body and the soul. Fermenting foods, weaving, dying fabrics, creating ceremony, sharing meals at night and dreams in the morning, drinking tea, and making plant medicines – singing songs, together as a community- these were the common knowledge ways and part of the simple pleasures of a life lived in balance and harmony with nature. Let us gather together as Women and share our skills in remembrance of the beauty path and an honoring of our Ancestors.” – via Spirit Weavers Gathering
Last month I traveled to California to attend Spirit Weavers and embarked on a journey that transformed me in ways I am still just beginning to understand. Five days at Camp Navarro, immersed in the Redwoods, disconnected by technology and reconnected with myself and my sisters. Seeing new and familiar faces, learning, teaching, sharing, all while surrounded by the great trees. Over 600 women from all around the world united together for ceremonies, workshops, song, reflection and community.
A part of me wants to say this post is long overdue, but the words and inspiration always come exactly when they are supposed to. Today, on my birthday (and Earth Day!) I feel called to get a bit more personal on my blog and open up my heart. I’ve got a BIG announcement that has been years in the making and I can’t wait to finally share it with all of you!
First, I want you to know what I’ve been up to. I recently took an unexpected hiatus from the online world and stepped back into my reality. I took a good look at myself, what I wanted and where I was going. I saw the ways in which I was living in my comforts and coming from a place of fear. These months have turned out to be some of the most transformative of my life and left me with a renewed energy and new perspective of what is important to me. I am thrilled to be sharing more of my journey on Jewels of a Dreamer and feel so lucky to have this platform as an outlet for growth and creativity.
Last week I celebrated my birthday in a mindset that felt different from any other year. For the first time I wasn’t looking outside of myself for happiness or what others could do for me to make this day special. In turn I released expectations and had one of my best birthdays yet. For what felt like the first time in a really long time I took a look at where I am with crystal clear vision. Celebrating a milestone that for me was so in-tune with the feeling of being comfortable in my own skin, gratitude for where I am (including all of life’s lessons that have brought me here) and proud of what I have accomplished.
As 2014 comes to an end I have been doing a lot of reflecting on the past year and what I hope to accomplish for this upcoming year. I am not one to make a steadfast resolution but I do strongly believe in the power of energy as we release the past 12 months and welcome a fresh start.
This past year was powerful for me as it was the first time in my life that I started to get out of my own way. I realized the power in action, in moving my dreams into reality (and the kind of work I need to put in to do that). From this blog, to my health, to relationships in my life, I learned the time and effort that goes into maintaining what is important to me.
Creating Jewels of a Dreamer was only an idea for many years, something I dreamed of every day (ok, obsessed over), a place where I could share things that inspired me and were important to me (hence the name). Almost immediately, I realized how much I love blogging, more than I ever thought I would. The process of creating content and sharing my passions ignited me in a way I never thought possible. This emotion has only continued to grow stronger. I also realized that there needs to be a balance between my passions and work that needs to be done. I strived to balance two part-time jobs with my blog. I woke up early and stayed up late, finding time whenever I could. While every moment wasn’t easy, the time I created to work on my blog made it all worth it.
One of the biggest changes this year has been with my diet (a topic that could be a post of its own). After getting this sick this summer I got to a point where I was willing to do anything to feel better. After months of thinking I could figure it out on my own I finally went to see my holistic doctor, Dr. Frank Lipman. He had been urging me for well over a year to change my diet but that appointment was the first time I really heard him. After a decade of not eating meat (three of which I was a strict vegan and the rest a vegetarian) he told me that to heal I would need a diet overhaul. One that included meat, grass-fed butter, bone broth soup and a strict regiment of probiotics and herbal supplements. Within days, I felt like a completely new person. The diet has not been easy, especially mentally but the results do not lie. I have committed myself to making it as enjoyable as possible. I am by no means perfect and still figuring out the foods I can enjoy in moderation. To be perfectly honest I have been nervous about posting any pictures of my new diet because I felt so connected to being a vegetarian for so long, as if it was part of my identity. I love food and I am excited to share some of the recipes I have been exploring.
The past few weeks I disconnected for the first time in a long time and really got deep into my intentions for the upcoming year, to be crystal clear on what I want to manifest so the Universe sees it as I do. I spent time with Dan, my family & myself. I am re-energized. Ready to work even harder this year towards my dreams and feeling extreme gratitude for where I am.
Thank you for staying with me on this journey. I look forward to continuing to grow and share all of the jewels in my life as well as connect with you this upcoming year. xoxo